By Opeyemi
I’m Miss Busayo Opeyemi, by Gods
grace the founder of the unspoken woman, one time rebellious daughter now and
forever God’s daughter, an economist by way of academic qualification and a
writer by divine call, I love to write about God and his love for me and by
extension all of us, I write because it’s the greatest way I know how to
express myself, I laugh a lot because laughter is medicine to the soul and most
of all I love God because he first loved me. I find joy in making dresses.
The rains
come it drizzles first and the clouds don’t look dark enough so you’re pretty sure
it won’t rain for long and even if it rains long it wouldn’t be heavy enough to
cause any damage…….. and that is how almost every one of our trouble begins it
comes in trickles and next thing we know the sky above turns dark, who would
have known that simple catarrh without any major symptoms like cough would lead
me into the theatre 5 times, who would have expected that a harmless hang out
with friends at a restaurant would lead me to a year suspension?
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| And suddenly the rain moves from a drizzle to this |
Anyone who
is familiar with this blog knows a lot about me already if not you can go
through the blog and catch up on what’s gone on before. Well in 2011 my sinuses
got full and I started to have a growth behind my eyes and so my eyes became protruded
and I needed a surgery to correct it, February 2012 I had the corrective
surgery but like I said earlier on trouble comes like rain it drizzles before
it pours I went into surgery believing sinusitis was just an ailment you know
one surgery and that is all naahhh it’s a condition, you know like asthma it’s
in the body but can be managed, so the first surgery led to a second, and then
a third and a fourth and finally a fifth. Surgeries several times leave their
victims traumatized, how much more 5 surgeries within a few months, I wasn’t just
traumatized I was crushed, sinusitis took my weight and left me looking sickly,
sinusitis left me with a scar and worse of all sinusitis refused to go.
Like every
other person I had a dream to change the world to make an impact in my
generation somehow but sinusitis made me feel unable to because I was too weak
to do anything but lie in my bed and cry and attend the few classes I could
when sinusitis didn’t stop me, I became highly insecure, when people looked at
me I felt it was the scar they were staring at, I was broken and I wasn’t sure I
would ever be fine, I wasn’t sure I would ever make an impact in my life time, then one afternoon I stumbled on a blog and it
did have an impact on my life and then I remembered something i was amazing at;
WRITING, I hadn’t done that in a while but I always knew I could and so in my
pain I took up writing and my first blog was birthed, I started out writing
about pain and like that I grew, the blog grew and people were inspired, people
were challenged and most of all people were encouraged. My pain pushed me to do
something at a point where I felt there was nothing I could do and in the
process I’ve been healed, my mind has something else to focus on aside my
health, someone once said “your own pain grows dim if while in it you find something
to pour your passion and pain into” this is so true I’m consumed with my
writing I no longer notice the physical pain as much as I should because my
mind is away from it, when pain pushes you to the edge and you don’t know what
to do find your stride pour your strength and pain and passion into it and
watch the pain fade into oblivion my health is not 100% but my mind is now 100%
and because of that I feel 100%.
The last
two entries on the blog I shared my suspension story (please read it up, It’s
pretty lengthy I can’t go over it again), during the suspension period I ran
into serious depression, I was in a fog and still couldn’t believe what had
happened to me, when the pain had taken a greater part of my strength I picked
up sewing, I’d always wanted to make dress but school and stuff wouldn’t allow
me and in my pain I started learning how to sew and today I can make amazing
dresses for not just myself but for others too, so much I’m considering a
fashion line and letting go of my certificate.
One thing
I’ve learnt is this pain comes to us all good and bad alike, heavy rains would
fall after the drizzle but one thing is certain beyond the dark cloud lies the
sun but you won’t get to the sun if you fail to push, if we sit and wait
without doing anything until the rain stops and the cloud is clear and the sun
is shining time would have been wasted. If you have pain it’s not enough to
make you a watcher on the sideline play in the pain, let the pain push you to
do something don’t allow pain stop you. Refuse to allow pain in any form
overtake you decide to take over and pour your pain into something eventually
the rain would stop, the storm would become calm and the sun would shine again.
Yours in his love
Opeyemi.
